i haven't posted in a whole week. been busy. anyhow.
yesterday i attempted to get my wireless card to pick up the network in the office. it works everywhere else, fantastically, but not in our office for some reason. so the guy responsible for the wireless was all, 'why are you sitting in sunny's office with him? you could use the wireless and sit at the break table.' and i was all, 'it doesn't work, dude.' and he was all, 'well let's fix that'.
so we fiddle and we poke and he tries a bunch of crap i've already tried and then we give up and he busts out an external card so i can try that. i'm sitting here thinking 'i've got to get some work done' but whatever. we install the driver for the cisco card, reboot, and BAM. blue screen of death, which i've managed to avoid till now. i finally got it to reboot in safe mode (who knew i had to go through dell's boot menu and hardware diagnostics to get to that?), uninstalled the driver, and was back up and running, but it scared the gee-whiz outta me because i thought i'd lost all the work i'd done that day. bleh. ok, good story! i should tell that at parties.
there is a guy at my office who has the exact same voice as my cousin manny. it's disconcerting. because he looks very different.
i am making some things right that i made wrong before. (of course, it doesn't come cheap.) i don't so much like to post about it, though. so here is all i have to say about it for a while:
i hope that i am fixing up the *only* huge gigantic idiotic mis-handled blunder that i will regret for the rest of my days. that can be read in two different ways - i hope that i'm fixing it, and i hope that it's the only one - and i mean them both. nobody wants to be 'that guy', the one in the movie that nobody likes. it's hard to like yourself again after you do something 'that guy'-worthy. i am very, very dumb, but i am also very, very lucky. and as they say, it's better to be lucky than good.
my new year came late this year.... or is it early? i resolve to be quieter and more patient. i resolve to take time to listen and think. i resolve to not take what i have for granted, or let myself be distracted by the green, green grass on the other side of that fence. and i resolve not to hurt anyone else. i can do this.
i think i understand myself a little better after this bizarre year-and-a-halfish. i feel like i'm waking up from a dream. i just hope when i roll over that she smiles at me and says 'good morning.'